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i changed my blog again.  i’m with multiply. http://jennjao.multiply.com/

put away the pictures
put away the memories
i put over and over
through my tears
i’ve held them till i’m blind
they kept my hope alive
as if somehow that i’d keep you here
once you believed in a love forevermore?
how do you keep it in a drawer?
now here it comes, the hardest part of all
unchain my heart that’s holding on
how do i start to live my life alone?
guess i’m just learning
learning the art of letting go…

try to say it’s over
say the word goodbye
but each time it catches in my throat
you’re still here in me
and i can’t set you free
so i hold on to what i wanted most
maybe someday we’ll be friends forevermore
wish i could open up that door…
now here it comes, the hardest part of all
unchain my heart that’s holding on
how do i start to live my life alone?
guess i’m just learning
learning the art of letting go…

watching us fade
what can i do?
but i try to make it through the pain
of one more day withoout you

where do i start, to live my life alone
i guess i’m learning, only learning
learning the art of letting go…

Namulat ako at ngayo’y nag-iisa
Pagkatapso ng ulan
Bagamat nakalipas na ang mga sandali
Ay nagmumuni
Kung ako’y nagwagi
Pinipilit mang sabihin
Na ito’y wala sa akin
Ngunit bakit hanggang ngayon
Nagdurugo pa rin
Refrain:
Sa kanya pa rin
Babalik sigaw ng damdamin
Sa kanya pa rin
Sasaya bulong ng puso ko
Kung buhay pa
Ang alaala ng ating nakaraan
Ang pagmamahal at panahon alay pa rin
Sa kanya
At sa hantinggabi ay nag-iisa na lang
At minamasdan ang larawan mo
At ngayo’y bumalik na siya’y kapiling pa
Alaala ng buong magdamag
Kung sakali man isipin na ito’y wala sa akin
Sana’y dinggin ang tinig kong nag-iisa pa rin
Refrain
Refrain (except last line)
Ang pagmamahal at panahon alay pa rin
Sa kanya?

I’m busy with my extracurricular activities..

Aside from being able to watch BSB concert (which was the best thing that happened to me this year!), our Rendezvous project was finally over. Thank you for everyone who helped us.

We are busy now finding a nice place to chill on our culminating night so we are in "resort hopping" gear. We’re also getting ready for the week long celebration of our 47th anniversary!!

I’m also now active in AIESEC UPD.. Go Iara!! I attended the fun A-Day in Camp Aguinaldo last Saturday.

Next week will be our accounting week. Hay. There were only 13 of us in our class who passed the first exam. SAdness. only 45%. Must pass this upcoming 2nd exam……

I still-BSB

Who are you now?
Are you still the same
Or did you change somehow?
What do you do
At this very moment when I think of you?
And when I’m looking back
How we were young and stupid
Do you remember that?
Baby

No matter how I fight it
Can’t deny it
Just can’t let you go

I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything’s been said and done
I still feel you
Like I’m right beside you
But still no word from you

Now look at me
Instead of moving on, I refuse to see
That I keep coming back
And I’m stuck in a moment
That wasn’t meant to last (to last)

I try to fight it
Can’t deny it
You don’t even know

That I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything’s been said and done
I still feel you
Like I’m right beside you
But still no word from you

Ohhhh
Wish I could find you
Just like you found me
Ohhhhh (can’t live without you)

Though everything’s been said and done (yeah)
I still feel you (I still feel you)
Like I’m right beside you (like I’m right beside you)
But still no (still no word) word from you

Never gone-BSB

I really miss you
There’s something that I gotta say

The things we did, the things we said
Keep coming back to me and make me smile again
You showed me how to face the truth
Everything that’s good in me I owe to you

Though the distance that’s between us
Now may seem to be too far
It will never separate us
Deep inside I know you are

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close, everyday
Every step along the way
Even though for now we’ve gotta say goodbye
I know you will be forever in my life (yeah)
Never gone

No no no
I walk alone these empty streets
There is not a second you’re not here with me
The love you gave, the grace you’ve shown
Will always give me strength and be my cornerstone

(Somehow)
Somehow you found a way
To see the best I have in me
As long as time goes on
I swear to you that you will be

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close (always close)
Everyday (everyday)
Every step along the way
Even though for now we’ve gotta say goodbye
I know you will be forever in my life (in my life yeah)

Never gone from me
If there’s one thing I believe (I believe)
I will see you somewhere down the road again

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close (always close)
Everyday (everyday)
Every step along the way
Even though for now we’ve gotta say goodbye (yeah yeah)
I know you will be forever in my life (in my life)

Never gone, never far
In my heart (in my heart is where) is where you are (you are)
Always close, everyday
Every step along the way

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are

All I Ask Of You - Phantom Of The Opera

(Raoul) No more talk of darkness Forget these wide-eyed fears I’m here, nothing can harm you My words will warm and calm you Let me be your freedom Let daylight dry your tears I’m here, with you, beside you To guard you and to guide you

(Christine) Say you’ll love me every waking moment Turn my head with talk of summer time Say you need me with you now and always Promise me that all you say is true That’s all I ask of you

[Raoul] Let me be your shelter Let me be your light You’re safe, no one will find you Your fears are far behind you

[Christine] All I want is freedom A world with no more night And you, always beside me To hold me and to hide me

[Raoul] Then say you’ll share with me one love, one lifetime Let me lead you from your solitude Say you need me with you here, beside you Anywhere you go, let me go too Christine, that’s all I ask of you

[Christine] Say you’ll share with me one love, one lifetime Say the word and I will follow you

[Both] Share each day with me, each night, each morning

[Christine] Say you love me [Raoul] You know I do

[Both] Love me, that’s all I ask of you …

(They kiss. Raoul lifts Christine off her feet, into his arms and holds her) [Both] Anywhere you go, let me go too Love me, that’s all I ask of you

I went to Fontana just this last friday to sunday. I really was thinking if i will go or not since Jhena will not go. But after seeing abi que in Greenhills that week, i decided to go knowing that she’ll be there.

THe first night was bryan and jen moment. Haha. We just hanged out and talked since we can’t watch tv because there’s nothing to watch and the rest in the house are already asleep. We then went out and talked with albert and sidney. Nice. We slept around 5am already.

Mia, bry and i are missing you so much.

The next day was a card game day. Erik, Jerico, Abi, Bry and I  stayed in our room the whole afternoon playing bridge and other card games. I wasn’t able to play much because i had to do my paper. So i went to the other room and worked while i was hearing bry’s frustration over losing, haha, again. Dinner was fun. Albert cooked fried chicken and the ultimate bicol express. I love spicy food but i had to give up on the bicol express because it was too much! Erik even started sweating, bry became silentand his face became red, and sid just had to take a break. Bry and I drank coke rhum. Ahem. Bry, i finished 2/3 of it. I then slept and the next day abi, bry and i just talked until the boys were back from their basketball trip. Nothing happened much because basically it’s the wrap up day. We then ate and left fontana around 2pm.

It was nice seeing my beloved sidney (Thank you bby for the time and laughter). I really love that person and I’m happy he’s happy. I felt awkward talking to him at first since we didn’t talk anymore and even see each other. I guess though circumstances brought us apart, haha, we still manage to be okay. No matter what people say and try to interfere again, i love sid. Though we’re apart already, it’s my choice to stay this way and want to be honest with my feelings.To the people who wants us separated, you guys have already won for 2 years already so lay off, stop bothering sid and me.

For the people that made the trip happy, thank you!! I wasn’t able to get out of the house at all because when they wanted to walk around i wanted to sleep so i just stayed alone and slept.

Erik!! we love you and thank you for everything!!!!! 

Yesterday, I went to Univ belt for flyering. Do join rendezvous and have an ultimate dating experience!!:)

Monday and Tues: Bonding day with friends in Makati

Wednesday: Parlor Day

Thursday: SM North with cris and kate

Friday: Powerplant with Cris

I’m super tired the whole week. This whole vacation, I was barely at home. I have this worry that I’m not ready to go to school this Jan. 2. I’m glad that i have spent it with my girl buddies. I don’t see them during school days and this vacation was very important for us since Kate came home after not seeing her for two years.

It’s nice to know that our friendship is still strong and we haven’t change that much though we did personally. They say i’ve changed. Yeah. I did. I became nonchalant "daw" to things and their term made me think. They  said I had "tough love". Hmm. I don’t know. Maybe yeah, i do. I just laugh my way through things and face it knowing there’s no other way but to do so. Oh well. "Ewan".

Kate’s leaving on Jan. 3. I’m hoping we’ll have our goodbyes this Monday. I hope we’ll not have any law classes.

New Year. New Life. New HOpe. YEah. Go 2006!